I should get my blog set to private soon as too many extras are reading or maybe they wanna curse me this is what I deserve? Whatever you all gonna say cause I don't give a damn.
Ytd went to aokk house sleep while waiting for him to back home. After that something happened because he ain't treating me like how he treated me. End up he told me that his feeling for me had started to fade away. But I ain't stupid too. I already knew this would come that's why I putting so much effort to change now. I tried to send those guailan msg how I used to be. But you didn't care. I tried to send those sweet msg and you didn't care too. End up you told me because you saw my msg jitiao sian diao. Have you ever thought of my feeling when you said this to me? Do you know that my heart is dying inside? I don't want you to hungry so I work. I lied that I earn 30 but its fake. Cause I earned less then that during that day. I only ate bread so I would have extra cash to give you. I would do this is just that I want you to concern me more. But you didn't seems to appreciate it as well. I know why your feeling has faded for me. It's my fault too. But why I would become like this? Because you lied to me several times and used alot of words to hurt me. I also wanted to being like last time badly. Where I could receive your msg say you miss me. Where you call me your cute pig. It's been month and you never called me that anymore. Yes I did wanted to break badly but I just can't. I don't want to throw you alone when you need someone to help you. You said I'm selfish and never though of your feeling I can admit. But did you do ever though of my feeling too? I tried to change but did you change for me too? You never. Im useless to you right now. That's why you break with me also don't feel a single pain or even I sacrifices my salary to you, you also treat it as nothing. I don't want you to pay me back my money or whatever. I just want you to treat me like last time. How you used to called me every night that's all. I don't ask for much seriously. Today I tried to being nice again and you ignored again. Do you know how much it hurts? I really feeling like end this relationship ASAP you know? But I just can't. I really can't. Cause I would always remember how you pamper me last time. If you're feeling just keep on fading then just break totally. I dont want to block you finding another better girls. I suffer will do. God is really unfair to me... I'm crying badly silently...
