You're being unreasonable with me.

Currently drunk ed and re-watching 海派甜心. This show reminds me alots of things. Remember the first time we chat at msn? I was watching the show while you added me at msn. You asked me what i doing then i told you i was watching Hi My sweetheart. You replied Me your sweetheart ah ? Cried alot today.. Finally my tears willing to fall.... Tex ted you and you won't reply... Nvm then... Since i already said i can't take it back... I seriously don't know what am i doing... Sometimes felt you were annoying , sometimes don't.. What exactly i wanted i also don't know.. But i know i can't met your expectation. Im not those obedient girls or those understanding girls that can treat you very nice just the way you want. Perhaps now also got girls chatting with you bahhs? You don't lose everything but i lose everythings. I now can consider a failure. But you don't. Hope you can find your true happinese bahhs...

爱太痛 - 吴克群

吃不能吃 睡不能睡

没有了你 全都不对

我都学不会 把爱敷衍

用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑 哭不敢哭

人不像人 鬼不像鬼

朋友都说这 不过失恋

但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了

我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了

能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了

我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍

我不能够 不能够不爱了

我不能睡

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了

我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了

能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了

我不能够 不能够不爱了

最后一抹的微笑

在转身之后

我闭上眼哭了

仅存的一点点骄傲

华丽的外表终于丢掉

很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或

悲惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上 一片无

声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上 一片无

声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还

傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

Early in the morning around 5am , whole family rushed down to changi to fetch my sister back to sg. Woohoo , finally she's back! Reached there about 6+ yet she haven reach. Waited and waited... 7+ lidat we finally saw her! Hoho , so happy ^^. So we took mrt back home as dad went for work already. While tapping card a fucking Indian man cut ted my queue when im about to tap and caused us to miss our train. Fuck him -'-
After that from tanah merah to paya lebar. Walao , those aunties damn inconsiderate eh! Didn't she saw us carrying a big luggage and a heavy backpack ? Rush in and stepped my leg like don't know how many times siols. As if that is the last train =.=
Still say walao , move in lahs! EXCUSE ME , GOT ALOT OF SPACE EH. Fuck you! Squeezed till i don't even have space to breath (cause a lady in front me her butt very big arh). When reach paya lebar we wanted to go out , asked to excuse us also cannot . Please lah , also not your father buy this train. WTF keep saying walao walao. Damn pekcek eh. So went to point to eat instead. Saw her bought back lots of souvenir hmmm , yummy yummy :)
Back home rest awhile then continue packing out her stuffs. The vanilla nougat is nice! The sparkling chocolate also nice! Carmel want ley! And some nuts... Crazy hor? Chatted with her then went to sleep. Not long my house was filled with nauseating smell some sort of burning plastic lidat. Plus i flu all air trapped inside , headache. @.@
Btw i will uploading those kangaroo and kola bear's pic soon ^^v THEY ARE SO FREAKING CUTE!!! Haha :)

Ahahahha! :x

Took this while webcaming with that fatty few days ago. I've highlighted his pimple ^^v. Haha , hope he doesn't saw this post siols. If not everyone will have free curry chicken to eat. LOL! o.o

Today mama suddenly off which i didn't expected. Lied to her going out with xxx. After that rushed to point to get chicken as buibong wanted to eat. Tried cook as fast as i could so it managed to finish it within 1/2hr. LOL , zai right? Squeezed all food into lunch box , i added too many rice. Cooked omelet (egg and hotdog) and chicken patty really hoped he like it wor :) As usual when to his home AGAIN. Reached there first thing is saw he and his grandma outside while they saw me coming towards them. Idiotic buibong said something about me then he and his grandma keep laughing about it >:( Bought remy martin there to drink gone crazy after that. I swear i won't drink those kind of beer anymore! Causing my gastric pain like there's no tomorrow. Nehneh lahhs. Passed my virus to buibong and he sneezed like don't know how many times? I alrdy told him i was sick yet he insisted me to go. LOL , his problem liaos. Went down to eat tom yam fish soup. Woah my gastric is filled with acids. Back home around 9+ .

Ytd send my mei off to Australia. Don't know how is she over there didn't even return a phone call back since i sent her so many msg. Kinda miss her cause i will alone these few days. Haiis , hoping buibong will entertain me more bahhs ? Hahas...

Pic pic ^^v.
I know this pic looked kind of scary due to my eye! :"(
Morning wasn't in good condition with aokk but after i reached his home , everything seems back to normal. Haha , like 2 immature kids :) That idiotic aaron then passed me few bottle of drinks to drink. He didn't like red bull smell so i took all 3 to finish it. Continue with an almost empty bottle of Martel. Didn't know the effect would be that fast and im drunk. Played awhile as usual. Haha , my aaron is so cuteee ♥! Went to his near by market to eat and helped my mei to buy her stuff to australia. So shiok D: ! After that back to his home and play. Totally drunked and together with my bruise at my head. HOLY SHIT! Back home after that. I can't wait for christmas :)

Why is it our relationship is getting more towards hot and cold situation? Is it my fault or what? Getting abit tired of these. Today back to iora help out. When to hougang and they asked me to go city square work instead. They even scammed my 4.10 siols! I remembered clearly i DID pay to them and that day is i 6pm then transferred to city square. Mother fucker, i haven get pay yet they all keep scamming. Whatever i say here also no use. Worked till 8.30 there. During packing i knocked my head to the cupboard. FML!!! I pain till very giddy eh! Nobody shown any concern to me. PATHETIC. Continued to work and being said by them why so weak. Hey , im not your employee anymore! Waiting for recruit express respond might as well don't. Till now im still headache , didn't know the knock force were that strong o.o
Don't understand why we are keep quarreling? Don't understand why our happy moment turns out like this. Im too tired to care about this anyhow. How much effort we tried the result is still the same wasn't it?

Another disappointment. Decided to post due to boredness.
Histories keep repeats as i predicted. All craps , all those promises are purely lies.
Knife stabbed into heart deeply. It hurts ALOT.
Since im so stupid easily being used by people, from now on i will change.
Bitches and bastard from now on fuck off my life.
I don't need you all to control my life , since its mine, i will control myself.
Dogface shit.

Back to post.
Currently super moodswing or is it i more becoming towards selfish ?
Sometimes i don't even know what im thinking or doing.
Is it correct or wrong? I don't even know.
Kept flunking my studies nowadays... Haiis..
Going off com le. Byebyes ...

Now very pekcek with aaron!!!!!!!!!!! @#%&&(*^%(*&^%%

Just back home online my fb then saw many things ...

First , checked relationship as before yc msg-ed me about it. Know what? That si aaron go put i relationship with him. Heng i call him ignore it =.=

Zzzzzzzzzz!!!

Next saw he chat with my teacher . Rather stupid conversation.

See my table.

..

Monday POA lesson starts after recess... =.=

LOLOLOL ! What he said to my poa teacher....

Me
because tmr got your lesson
then if u nvr go school we all early go home
Jude
even if i dont go u all also cant go hm early wat
got the CDL
lesson
Me
ya i forgot

Extremely stupid conversation ._.

I almost laughed. Btww hor i just found out his uncle's home is super near my house. I even can walk there too . (But i lazy lahhs)

Directly opposite to kaiting's home and infront of yc's home =.=

Woah , all familiar ppl stay there. Hahas ...

I won't be updating much post up here as i will kip updating me and aaron's blog more.
So byebye ^^v

Aiya i don't know what to post lahhs! Not going to post lahhs.

Don't even now why recently so sad. Is it something happen ?
Just felt that everything is just so fragile... A simple confict could cost up great regret.
难道我们一定要失去后在懂得去珍惜吗？
I don't like the feeling of losing someone .
I don't like the feeling that i couldn't get things what i wanted.
I don't like the feeling of hurting someone.
I don't like being hated by someone i love.
I don't like being alone .
&& i don't like the feeling noww.
Its so depressing... I don't want anyone around me to go and i don't want leave them...

Today lazy to post as i even posted at aaron's blog so i don't even know what to post at here. Soooo Byebye :)

Awww , tmr sch re open liaos. Damn sianns luhhs .
I can't even kip play com also ! D:<
Gonna prepare for N lvls liaos =.= Everyday kip N lvl N lvl damn irritating leyyy!
Haiis still tot tmr got holiday luhhs =.=
Ltr going to amk eat. Yay ^^
There is food le. Don't know kip hungry leyy ! I think i got 2 stomach bahhs ? LOL.
Kkays gtg soon. Bye .

Tiring

Today whole day stay at home didn't go out. Damn super duper bored ttm ! D:
Cook some noodles and do some house chores while chatting with aaron the idiotic. LOL!
Blahblah sooo funny siols. Many idiotic jokes =.=
Then on9 play bowling with him... I KIP LOSE EHHHH! Tmd bu shuang.
Haha , he eng damn funny. LOLOL!
~ P- EIYING says:*See how luhhs.
*Btw i m losing =.=
天空的眼泪 says: *gib u win k
~ P- EIYING says:*No nid. LOL.
*You like sian sian the wor.
天空的眼泪 says: *ya lo
*hand noob noob*numb numb
~ P- EIYING says:*You?
天空的眼泪 says:*ya

LOL! Who the hell hand would be noob arh ? Funny guy. Hmmmmmm , even privated his blog. Wuliaos , sooo boringggg . Didi beside me damn irritatiNG =.=

Woah 1am liaos.. Just finished edit aaron's blog skin. Actually i didn't really know if he wants it or not...
Today wake up around 9 lidat tgt with mei prepared food to cook and cook for that pig also.
Its not 100% nice lahhs at least got the effort kkay ! :x
The weather super cold so i "risked" it to went to his house even till now also cold the nohhs ! Hahas ._.
Challenge dj max with him. Eh don't know why this time kip lose =.= perhaps somebody curse me ?
Blahblahs around afternoon jiu went out with aaron , angela and his kor for steamboat ingredient. Eat till very full siols. LOL.
Then that si aaron put salt at my ulcer and it hurts like hell at starting but after that i felt nothing. MIRACLES! Haha :)
TMD i hate that weighting machine seriously! Recently i can't resist the temptation of FOOD. I know i fat alrdy lahhs ! Kuku siols :@
Hmm , i now also abit hungry liaos @.@
Listened to his interesting past history before i went back home... SIAN! Sch gonna re open yet i don't want siols!!! Im sure those teachers will make us stay back for extra classes =.=
Can't kip going out anymore le ... FML D:

SEE THIS! Oh kuan kun kip lose me.

Ahahahahahha, soooo shiok siols.

Damn funny. ^^v

Today super tired siols. Didn't slp alot.
Wake up and do some house chores.... Usual routine...
Went to point for lunch and shop around for drink etc .
Laughed badly at aaron moaning sound. LOL , super funny even my sister laugh out loud.
Ahahahaha , stupid siols.
Back home planning to watch toy story 3 but don't know why connection sucks ttm.
Don't even know whether it load completes =.=
Haiis , so slpy lahhhs !!! :@
Noticed my hair is so fucked messy should go trim it sooner or later.
Quickly grow long longer longer longer LONGER!
Plusplus i haven bought my lens yet =.=
Awwwww :(

Wake up super early today. 6+ jiu kena wake by aaron =.=
Didn't know my hp was beside me then it rings soo loudly that im wake o.o
Blahblah super siann luhhs! Is either i slp not enuf or i slp too much , if not why i whole day so slpy ?
Prepare some random stuff and eat some random food then went to his house in early morning just to continue my slp . LOL , joker =.=
Afterwards went to mall to borrow novels...
This time i borrowed is vampire kind... which i don't really like in the past don't know i able to read finish within time? Haha. Ate 1 ice cream , actually i tot ice cream would help smoothing your ulcer but it didn't works for me but instead it hurt terribly :"(
Chiong-ed to catch my bus.
Reach home not long 阿姨& 舅舅came. Today its their last day at sg soo they will be back in indonesia again...
Gonna miss them especially that kid. HE IS ADORABLE! Hoping in future my kid would be cute as him . LOL!
Even teach him how to play psp but need translator. I seriously don't understand what a single thing he said! :@
As they said their last goodbye with us , 舅舅 cried out loud. LOL .
Didn't know he love sg soo much o.o
Kinda sad but they will visit us sooner or later dehhs.
Hahas , sch gonna re open liaos. I haven't done any hw yet at elearning which i totally abandon it aside. How am i possibly to print out sooo many sets of hw when i don't even have printer ink?
Noobass.
Nvm , heck care it lahhs ._.
Just receive some money back from mama. Yay ^^ tyty.
Hmmm , wondering should i pierce again mahhs or not? Haha :)

Back to blog again.
Seriously i don't know what to type.
Had the feeling to cry out yet not. Endured to the end and till cant hold it...
I don't know what had happen to me recently just... felt abit feverish at afternoon.
Forehead suddenly felt soo warm and dizzy. Plus that stupid ulcer is not getting anywhere !
It just getting bigger and bigger everytime i took out mirror to observe =.=
Perhaps it could be swollen as my teeth ? Eeeeew , disgusting.
Found out that i used almost 4 weeks to complete 1 novels =.= Super jialat after holiday gonna buck up.
I'm hungry now. Didn't eat alot today as my ulcer is hurting like hell !
By the way something is missing right now ! RIGHT NOW!
I want it desperately although thats the reason why i cried.... :"(

Back to post.
Recently was rather busy with test and trial exam.
Received class test back.
Shocking result x.x
Chemistry 8/20 - FAIL!!
Maths 37/50 - Average -.-
Chinese 31.5/50 - Average -.-
Overall still ok lahhs... But was rather pekcek with my chem ehhhh!
Lots of careless mistake luhhs!!!!! Is either i wrote in wrong place or i cancel away the correct ans. Fuckup.
Today had paper 1 and paper 2.
Paper 1 CMI LE!!! Is FORMAL NOT INFORMAL T^T.
Hai me chiong sooo many books =.=
Haiis perhaps stress till pimpple keep poking out. RAWRRRR!
Faster holiday faster holiday ^^
Will be posting after exam again bahhs? o.o

Even edited skin abit.
Change the background colour. LOL!
At least can see better? o.o
Why recently i sooo easily angry ?
Why i so easily cry ?
Why i so easily used by ppl ?
Why am i soo stupid ?
Why why why ?!?!
Sick of it.
Ytd cried 2 times.
What had i done wrong this time ?
I don't want to stay at home anymore. Felt soo sickening and tired to heard them nag at me or siblings quarrel . FTW ! =.=
No life .
Whole day slping~~ Walking dead =.=
Sua , shall end my post here.

Going change blogskin soon ^^
When im free nia. LOL!

Backkk to post...
Currently my own acc was LOCKED . Knn , i forgotten my own password ._.
Somemore admin leyy. Die luhhhhs .
Sooo will be using mei's acc from now on...
Thenn mei don't allow me to reformat , soo confirm die luhhhs.
Boredd this fews day. Morning wake up, saw myself with dark eye bags x.x
Go sch prepared ppl to say me . LOL!
Didn't do homework most of the time. Btw i might even forget how to do le >.<
Haiis , don't wanna fail N lvls...
Today after sch go point with sm them..
After annie and loveena went home left me and sm go mall..
Finish eating jiu go library do homework. Only sm there soo hardworking nia.
I lazy do lahhhs . Nobody teach me how do...
Plus im tireddd .
I don't even know what i keep thinking this few days...
Is not i have alots of problems or stressing with ..
Because i really don't know... Hahas ._.

Back to post.
Ytd was actually posting on half way dehhs, thenn suddenly someone ask me smthing and i cried out. LOL!
Sibei dulan leyy , privacy kena leak out by some big mouth. @#@%%%@#!@$!
Egg lahhs , nahbei -'-
Sooo today early go home thenn post dehhs.
Now waiting till 12.45 then go out with sm and mama.
Now going half aslp.
Haahaa , thennn was actually fall aslp without brushing teeth >.<
Heng aaron got msg then too loud till i wake. LOL :P
Drink too much cold, stomach pain now.
Sooo sianns ._.
Today go sch. Didn't mit dao sm also :'(
Jiuuuuu go sch for the performance. Waa , i sit there till leg cramp shun bian disiao wt also ^^
Haahaa , sooo funny luhhhs.
After that go 971 giving out oranges.
Funny luhhs , in front is my home. So fang bian :x
HAAHAA , sianns.
Late liaos. ltr sm complain me :x

Just had reunion finish .
LOL , now abit stomach pain ._.
Sooo siannns and tired.
Now just 12.24 yet my eye couldn't open wide enough.
Morning i 4.35am wake. Ridiculous right?
Hahas , whole day didn't get alots of chances to sleep.
Now still online chatting with people.
Haahaa , see me getting panda's eye. Woohoo .
Recently i didn't go play maple liaos.
Maybe quitting soon? I felt its getting boredd liaos.
LOL , msg more fun then gaming luhhs. :x
Haahaa , watch anime le . Byebye.


Btwwww , i didn't reply tags wor. Lazy reply :P

Back to post.
I even let my blog to rot.
Cause i won't ables to keep online nowadays.
Haiis , in order to get good results need to sacrifices?
LOL , actually its not big deal lahhs.
Haahaa , at least got hp to msg ^^
Thennn hor , seriously homework is getting more and more.
Arghhh , we need some rest ! ~~~ :'(
Sad lahhs.
Still got poa haven do. 8 qns on prepaid expense? LOL! Confirm cmi dehhs.
Haiis , tmr got np reunion dinner.
Need to go buy food for steamboat plusss training. Arghhh D:<
Now don't know how siols. Thennn still need go out at sunday . D:
LOL! Busy chatting at msn.
Gtg byebye ^^

Update blog.
Ever since soooo longggg didn't blog le. LOL
Is not i busy studying or what.
Is i busy playing game. LOL!
Currently, my hp spoil liaos. Now can't even blackout screen could type. Is totally won't on. Zzzzzz. Suay luhhs.
Sooo now is using my mother's hp . Haahaa , thanks wor :)
Then previously didn't reply anyone is prepaid low. Didn't manage to contact to anyone.
Today was kind of boringgg at sch lahhs.
Had lots of class tests . Tired, then now maths is about same as accounting nohhs.
Waaaahhh , i can't cope with poa seriously now maths also like that ?!
Gonna buck up soon. Not sure when's that day... LOL!
Btw this week received 2 present wor ^^.
Thank you zhenzhen and claudia :D
Both give me chocolate to eat. Woohoo , gonna fat soon :P

Today rather nth .
Whole day kip stomach pain x.x
Haiis , nvm . LOL.
Then then had lesson - blahsblahs ._.
After sch accompany kt to buy her lens .
Hahas , then slack with her at her house.
Then slp at her house. HAHA!
Okok lahhs .
Quite windy xD
So back home also slp .
Slp for quite long siols :P
Haha , now going slp again.
For tmr's training . Haiis :(

Today morning, rushed to sch.
7.28 reached , end up late. Fucker siols =.=
Shld be 7.30 late what ? Wth , nvm.
3rd time late . So going have 1hr of detention SOON!
Hahas , boreddd .
Seriously i don't like the time slot now.
Its like seperating NT and NA away =.=
Tmd!! Cnt go recess with sm liaos ._.
Sad siols. Thennn , today got lots of homework .
Gonna die soon . CMI :)
Haiis , count here and there . Write here and there. Sianns ehhs .
LOLS ._.
Nth to post . Tired x.x
Haven do POA and eng hw =.=

Yawns , recently super tired wor .
Morning late again .
Waa , sooo many times le.
Gonna receive letter or teacher going call my parent le bahhs ? o.o?
Haahaas .
Didn't study dao !!! Wtf ._.
Haahaa , then today had PE for 3 periods . Wth =.=
First walk 1 round , run 3 round . Still not enough then had smth like shuttle run .
Kns siols , super tired .
Wait for him to nag finish then continue with jog at stair case up and down . Hell luhhs.
Sicko ._.
Hahas , tired ehs .
After sch didn't go out with sm them . Today got mama pei them D:
Sad luhhs :'(
Then go out with real mama instead. LOL .
Actually want buy new years clothes for me dehhs .
In the end cnt find dao . All i wear like a stick lidat . Bo shape dehhs =.=
EEYER ! Dulan >.<

Back to post.
Did had many fun lahhs.
But till very tired D:
At sun chat with leon till very late then late for sch ._.
LOL , grats for me .
Haahaa , today thanks siona for the coffee siools :D
VERY NICE !
Hope my mama also can make me some coffee D:
Try hard at POA lesson .
Seriously i still dont understand much . Forget much liaos .
LOLs , nid to study liaos :(
Sad siols.
After sch go slack with shimin them .
Then go play with loveena's dog .
Super cuteeee luhhs!! Haha :D

Was i sensitive or what ?
Whatever things other ppl do that i don't like, i will get angry.
Or was i mood swing or what ?
Kind of piss off siols.
Don't treat my help as for granted.
Shall stop with all thats ..
Today first thing was late for sch . LOL siols.
Maybe i was not used being alone going to sch bahhs ?
I miss going sch with sm T^T.
Tmr gonna also the same.
Sad, then had maths, physic and eng.
Physic was like almost fall aslp.
Super sianns nohhs , lullaby siols . Haahaa :/
After that received diagnostic test result 38/50.
Hai okok lahhs . Random do dehhs. Haahaa :D
Gonna slp le , byebye .

Even deleted old post.
Thanks for celebrating my 16th bday and those wishes.
Had lots of with you all :D
Keep going out these few days.
Hope next time still can ^^.