I don't even know what should i do now? The day before is april fool and had quarrel with buibui till we broke up... I really hold on my tears till the end... I felt damn tired alrdy and wanted to rest for it.. But there's some reason that i don't wanna let go.. My heart totally cracked when you replied my question sooo directly... So consulted eastella for advices. Wow, didn't really know she's much pro then me in knowledge for guys. Should consult her for advice earlier!!! Chatted with her almost for the whole night. Great that i still have her :) She asked me to send mushy msg to him. But i fear that it might not worked, so i didn't dare to sent. Well it's my first time typing those kind of msg too! She said its my fault too for taking too granded on this realationship. Yup, i can agreed and aaron you also take it for granded hor!! My case is i like to ask for break when im pissed off or i don't understand the situation clearly then misjudge the situation. Then his case is used me to giving in for him and keep on breaking promises. From what i know, guys don't apologise to girls instead they use sweet talk to soften a girl's heart. (It can be sweet sometimes!) For girls is a rather shy type. They preferred to apologise more then guys do! Guys don't let their pride down easily as they wanna show how "strong" they're. I've learned that guys like to surrounded by girls and must be feel like alot of girls is falling crazy over them. OMG, its kinda sick for me :3 Haha! No offences seriously >.< He didn't reply me.. So i burst out. Crying hard in silent.. Eastella is trying her best to comfort me. Thanks sister <3 I asked her whether should i call aaron first or he call me first. Her reply was him. After i done brushing teeth , i saw a missed call from him. I was damn freaking happy. I swear i could jump up superb high siols! I stopped crying immediately. Perhaps eastella was right. We didn't build our foundation well. Which cause us keep quarreling. We shall understand each other more right? Just realised we've been tgt for 1yr plus yet i didn't know all of these. Felt kinda pathetic and a failure to be your gf siols.. But i've decided to make an effort to know more about guys and control my "missy attitude" bahhs.
Ytd went to your home. I didn't dare to say anything. I fear that your respond will not be what i wanted... So i kept quiet all the time and kept on crying... After awhile we managed to be normal how we used to be, playing, hugging etc... After when you send me home, i sent you a msg: what kind of relationship are we now? You reply: don't tell ya. I was kind of excited that hoping everything will be fine.. Till just now. You are words hurt me to the max. You said that we be best friend now on... Its like telling me that whatever i wanted to change or trying to improve and its gone now? It hurts seriously... My mind has alrdy given up but my heart still holding on this relationship tightly and i don't know why. Cause i believe that you'll take care of me rest of my life that's why i keep on holding and whenever you need help i'll try to be the first to help you.....
