Today aka ytd was kinda shag cause I was bribe by dear just to skip sch with him. Arghh! Attendance low again! :( Early in the morning I log into msn and he asked me to go to his house first then tgt go sch late. End up I sleep beside him because got cozzzy airconnn! Teeheehee! Then we both sleep like a boss! Tsk! He keep say like a balls. -.- sleep till time overshot and didn't manage to go sch again. MY PUDDING!! Awww :( make me cant share my pudding with cl and sep :( do prepare then go down eat. Ok, our appetite seems so small recently. Hmm? Jian fei! Hahaha! Back home watched 2nd season of Harold and kumar! Damn epic laugh like no tmr! Hahaha! Finish watch so went to slee! Hugging time!! Awww so comfy! So cute we! ^_^ why uh? Hahaha!

Ytd was a hot and spicy day with ♥! When to his house and be nanny again because of his thumb! He still can drift while playing ps3 etc like are you sure your finger is broken?? Haha! Wanted to cook Maggie for him end up he play the lighter burn dao me! :@
If only everyday we could be that happy can le ^_^ after that watched Harold and kumar and laughed madly. Then he went for check up with joule and left me alone at home. SLEEPING! Yay! Too hungry so I msg him I'm hungry! Hehe! I didn't know he really go da bao for me to eat. Awww so sweet! Love you! :> he say 只要看着我吃就幸福了. Awwww! Why he now do cute uh?! <3

Today wake up and do tons of house chores and cooked pudding for cl they all for tmr! As sep keep say she want to eat! Hehe! See I so good! It also been ages since I cook for ♥to eat also! Hmm, eggcited wor!! Later going down for contact lens! Shall end here! Byebye! :]

十六岁的某一天，因为有了他我的命运从哪开始改变了。起初只是因为好奇才在一起认为他不会带该我任何改变，但我错了。在一起久了才发现我不只是爱上他，我还特别依赖他。朋友都反对我们在一起好多次破坏我们的感情但这一切的一切我们都熬过了。可能我不是最好也不是最美，我的一切都是真得。一转眼就过了一年多，我这时才发现当时
我有多么的幼稚，傻，烦，无理取闹。可是那些伤痛，我可以引盖过去吗？朋友也一一离去，无人可以依赖，逛街。来到新的学校开始我新的生活，后悔也来不及了。为了他我放弃一切，改变一切。 不知道那是值得吗。时间一天一天过去，我们也有多多少少的分分离离。不习惯新的环境，一个人过自己的生活，去做工，读书，感情，家人。这些都给我很多压力，脾气也变了。他认为我变了，也对我冷淡了。静静的哭，发疯。告诉自己这一切都会过去。要坚强。

Basically, i won't update on this blog anymore. I'll leave it dead here. Bye peeps! Take care.

Things had get better after ytd visit to his house. I've have my family back to normal so as relationship. Seriously I don't ask for anything more. I managed to kept his heart mostly thanks to a novel which helps me make the first move. It teaches me those dos and don'ts. Now is my turn to concentrate on my studies and aim for poly. I really envy those of my friends who is able to study sec 5. Its too late to regret. Alright shall end post here. I shall go and post more at Aaron's blog ^^v.

I also updated our blog. I've written all my feelings already. I really hope you would go read it.

I should get my blog set to private soon as too many extras are reading or maybe they wanna curse me this is what I deserve? Whatever you all gonna say cause I don't give a damn.
Ytd went to aokk house sleep while waiting for him to back home. After that something happened because he ain't treating me like how he treated me. End up he told me that his feeling for me had started to fade away. But I ain't stupid too. I already knew this would come that's why I putting so much effort to change now. I tried to send those guailan msg how I used to be. But you didn't care. I tried to send those sweet msg and you didn't care too. End up you told me because you saw my msg jitiao sian diao. Have you ever thought of my feeling when you said this to me? Do you know that my heart is dying inside? I don't want you to hungry so I work. I lied that I earn 30 but its fake. Cause I earned less then that during that day. I only ate bread so I would have extra cash to give you. I would do this is just that I want you to concern me more. But you didn't seems to appreciate it as well. I know why your feeling has faded for me. It's my fault too. But why I would become like this? Because you lied to me several times and used alot of words to hurt me. I also wanted to being like last time badly. Where I could receive your msg say you miss me. Where you call me your cute pig. It's been month and you never called me that anymore. Yes I did wanted to break badly but I just can't. I don't want to throw you alone when you need someone to help you. You said I'm selfish and never though of your feeling I can admit. But did you do ever though of my feeling too? I tried to change but did you change for me too? You never. Im useless to you right now. That's why you break with me also don't feel a single pain or even I sacrifices my salary to you, you also treat it as nothing. I don't want you to pay me back my money or whatever. I just want you to treat me like last time. How you used to called me every night that's all. I don't ask for much seriously. Today I tried to being nice again and you ignored again. Do you know how much it hurts? I really feeling like end this relationship ASAP you know? But I just can't. I really can't. Cause I would always remember how you pamper me last time. If you're feeling just keep on fading then just break totally. I dont want to block you finding another better girls. I suffer will do. God is really unfair to me... I'm crying badly silently...